Wondering...

away to china to hide myself for 8days...i tot am getting better and able to absorb everything...yet, too much for me to accept the reality....too much...

when my buddy packed her stuff, and the cube bcome more n more empty...i just couldnt control my tears...loneliness filled me...

arrgghh...too bad...

i dunno, just dunno...too many questions ruin me, mess up my life... is re-org coming soon? who is the next to leave? how soon is it? am i going to re-allocate? the turn over is way too high, i join only for 11months n already 9 colleagues leave...oh my godness!

when i cannot handle thgs around me, i will feel so pressure, esp my future, my career...i wan everything to under my control...